ask the ancestors
they only whisper
as not to frighten you.
they have been convinced
out of your skin.
lemme just be a little angry real quick.
I want to make it a point that as womyn we have been programmed to be silent by society’s standards. We have been made to feel guilty about our anger, our emotions and our words.
So please do not silence me because I have gained the power to stick my fingers into my vocal chords and have fixed the knots that have impeded me from speaking for so long. As a mujer, do not expect me to agree with everything that is imposed on me, because I will no longer be complacent.
It hurts me to know that we put womyn against one another because we’re threatened by the power they have over one another. It saddens me to think that through combating this idea of being docile and kind, we have been programmed to feel threatened by any other womyn who can also be strong enough to vocalize her thoughts and opinions.
I am sorry if I’ve ever hurt any mujer in the process of reclaiming myself and my voice. But I refuse to ever apologize for being strong enough to combat society’s expectation of deeming myself mute, I refuse to ever succumb to the idea that I must be docile so that others can feel that the power remains within them, regardless of their gender. I am a mujer, an introvert at that, so do not expect for me to apologize for my growth, strength and voice.
I am angry that I have been made to look like a bad person simply because I have gained access to my own self-empowerment. I am angry that I am being criticized for speaking, passionately, effortlessly and no longer timidly. If you have any criticism of myself and my leadership, let it be constructive or else I do not want to hear it. I am no longer going to put myself in a position where people’s vibes, energy and aura are made to be toxic for my self-esteem and self-worth. I am much too fragile to be put in a place where I may crumble with inferiority. I refuse to be docile and if that upsets you, then maybe it is time you reevaluate where you stand in line with the other mujeres struggling to survive in this patriarchal society.
If you do not want to be my sister and fight this battle together, I can let you go your way. But do not make me get out of the line with the other womyn who support my growth, resiliency and voice.